Wednesday, 19 August 2015


I'm totally bored today so I decided to count up all of my followers on all social media I use so here goes;

Facebook - 232
Twitter - 292
Wattpad - 93
GAG - 219 - 131
Instagram - 336

Total = 1303

I'm pretty sure I have followers on other websites I used to use so you could probably add 100 more.

I think I'm officially unpopular online haha! Hopefully my Wattpad followings will go up soon. It was only about 30 a couple weeks ago!

How many accumulative followers do you have? :)

Tuesday, 11 August 2015

Mindless Tattoos

I know a girl who was in my college class. She loves reptiles and tattoos. She got her first tattoo when she was in college which actually was a tattoo to symbolise her and her boyfriend's love and relationship (stupid I know). They're still together luckily for her. She got a reptile tattoo on her foot that was cute. Near the end of college though, she got her favourite Japanese manga character tattooed on her forearm, quite large. His hair is all black so from a distance, it looks like a black blob on her forearm and it's totally out of place. When I saw her with it in college, she seemed quite self conscious about it. After college, she got more tattoos, it seems just weeks between each other. This girl definitely has an addiction. Her tattoos are just random things she likes, tattooed on herself, whether it looks nice or not. I know people can tattoo whatever they want, do whatever they want but even I noticed, she seemed self conscious about that forearm one.

Two weeks ago, she got a thigh tattoo and only a couple of days ago, she got another one. She's already planning to have another tattoo but of her dog. She always tags things like #tattoedwoman on instagram, like she's trying to get a following for it so she's trying to get as many tattoos as she can, without actually thinking about it. Her manga tattoo got over 1700 likes, whilst the rest of her photos have barely any. They always recommend that you give yourself 6 months to think over your tattoo before getting it, she has a new one every couple of weeks! It may bring her happiness now, but I have a feeling she'll regret at least a couple of them because she's doing them on the whim. Yes, people are covered in tattoos, but they do it because they love their tattoos, they often have meaning. They don't get covered in them to get some kind of following or to be liked by others or to try to be cool. I feel like she's doing it all for the wrong reasons.

I think I have Philophobia

"Philophobia is the abnormal, persistent and unwarranted fear of falling in love or emotional attachment. The risk is usually when a person has confronted any emotional turmoil relating to love in the past but also can be chronic phobia"

- wikipedia

I've just discovered this phobia but it rings true for me. I'm actually going on another date this Sunday with a new guy and I'm super nervous about it because I'm very smitten with him but I keep reminding myself that he'll probably let me down like the others. I always set my expectations low, yet with this guy, I'm hoping for so much and showing my family pictures of him! I'm excited but at the same time scared. I told my mother my heart was locked in a cage, it just has eyes for him but she didn't understand. I honestly want this to work but I'm so scared about this being painful that I worry it's going to ruin any chance. If he notices my instability about the whole thing, he'll probably run a mile! No guy wants to date a broken girl. I've already spoke to my friend about this and my mother told me not to tar all men with the same brush and I don't, well I really try not to. It's not like I think he'll be untrustworthy and cheat, it's more about him not being interested or just leaving me in the dark like the last asshole did. And then if we do get together, the painful break-up would seem inevitable. If things don't work out with this guy - I give up.

And oh yeah, following on from that post about the date, the asshole I was referring to was him. He disappeared off the face of the earth after the second date which seemed fine. He kissed me and arranged to meet up again but then he ignored my texts.